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Day 1 in Uganda (an entry from my journal)

I landed in Entebbe this afternoon after our flight was delayed 2 hours. The step off of the plane and onto the red African dirt will forever be engraved in my mind. That step initiated the furthest I’ve ever been physically and spiritually.
One of the first things I saw as soon as I got off of the plane was a man on a bike with about 300 bananas tied to it. The culture shock started to set in. People are lined up outside begging to carry my luggage to the bus. They’re so eager to help and talk to the mzungus. We got on our 1994 20 seater bus and headed down the long dirt road towards Konkolee village. It’s roughly 100 degrees here, and the sun is absolutely piercing. Traffic in Uganda is unlike anything I’ve ever seen. There’s no traffic laws, signs, or lights. Cars just pretty much squeeze between anywhere they can and the “pikis” (motorcycles) daringly squeeze between that. Everything looks like a giant Mexican flea market. There are nothing but little shacks everywhere with small businesses inside where they sell things such as drinks, water bins, and airtime cards. They’re bright vibrant colors with random posters all over. Little children are playing outside these makeshift shacks while the men are typically sitting on their pikis communicating with other men, and the women are peeling corn or skinning potatoes. The looks we get as we’re driving down the road is priceless. They rarely see mzungus. The women give dirty looks, the men make inappropriate remarks, and the children are jumping up and down singing the mzungu song. The children are obviously my favorites. Uganda has no trash system, so there is literally trash EVERYWHERE. All over the ground, in the creeks (of which they drink from) and in the bushes. Once they get ready to clean up, they pile it up and burn it all. However, this is still the most beautiful place I’ve seen yet. Banana trees everywhere, hills, mountains, green grass. It’s seriously breath taking. My forehead was to the window the whole ride. I was so amused by the culture of these people that I was trying to take in everything I possibly could as well as study my surroundings. The thing I love most is the children. These children are literally wearing rags. Most have no shoes so their poor little feet are all torn up and consumed by jiggers. (little insects that eat a little hole and burrow themselves into the bottom of your feet leaving egg sacs)
However. They’re still smiling from ear to ear. Their bright smiles and eyes stand out from their dark skin. It melts my heart that when I give them something, like a shirt or candy, that they bow down in appreciation. My heart is overjoyed to know that tomorrow I will be spending the day playing with our sponsored kids in Konkolee.
We finally arrived at our hotel 4 hours later. The hotel is surrounded by a gate for our protection, and an armed guard keeps watch at night. The hotel girls had prepared dinner for us. There was chicken, beef, rice, bread, and pineapple. I just stuck with rice and pineapple to play it safe. We got the keys to our rooms and went to go settle in. Mine and Leanna’s room is roughly 10 feet X 10 feet with two little twin sized beds. The bathroom door didn’t shut and there wasn’t a shower, just a shower head and the water fell into a little bucket. They told us it wasn’t best to shower while we are there cause the water isn’t safe. 10 days without showering should be interesting.
As I laid in my twin bed trying to unpack everything I had just seen on that bus ride, Leanna asked me a question. She said, “what do you want from this trip, Meg?” I said, “I want to be wrecked. I want to reach a new level of emotion.”
And it’s absolutely true. I want the lord to just completely break my heart over these people. I want to know and understand the lords heart for seeing the way these people are forced to live.
Lord… Break me. And when I’m broken, break me more. I don’t want dry eyes at all while I’m here. I’m asking you to shatter my heart. Thank you lord.

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5 Ways To Fight Temptation

1. Recognize your tendency towards sin.
“But each person is tempted when they are dragged away by their own evil desire and enticed.”
James 1:14 explains that we are tempted when we become enticed to our own natural desires. The first step towards avoiding temptation is recognizing your human tendency to be tempted by our own fleshly desires. Temptation is a given, so don’t be surprised by it. Rather, expect to be tempted. Be prepared for it!

2. Run away from the temptation.
I love the new living translation of 1 Corinthians 10:13.
“The temptations in your life are no different from what others experience. And God is faithful. He will not allow the temptation to be more than you can stand. When you are tempted, he will show you a way out so that you can endure.”
When you’re faced with temptation, look for that way out that God has promised and then run as fast as you can!

3. Resist with the word of truth.
Hebrews 4:12 says,
“For the word of God is alive and powerful. It is sharper than the sharpest two-edged sword, cutting between soul and spirit, between joint and marrow. It exposes our innermost thoughts and desires.”
Though it can be helpful to read gods word when you’re tempted, sometimes that’s not practical. Even better is to practice reading the word daily, so that eventually you have so much of it inside you.

4. Refocus with praise.
How often have you been tempted to sin when your heart and mind were fully concentrated on worship to the lord? Praising God takes the focus off of you and puts it on God. You may not be strong enough to resist temptation on your own, but as you focus on God he will inhabit your praise. He will give you the strength you need to resist and to walk away from temptation.

5. Repent quickly when you fail.
In several places, the bible tells us the best way to resist temptation is to flee from it. Yet we all fail from time to time. Notice I didn’t say “repent quickly IF you fail.” Having a more realistic view – knowing that at times you fail – should help you repent quickly when you do. It’s not the end of the world when you fail. But it is very dangerous to persist in your sin.
“These desires give birth to sinful actions. And when sin is allowed to grow, it gives birth to death.” James 1:15

God bless,
Megs.

Are you living Christlike?

When we do sin, God has given us the opportunity to repent. And a lot of people misunderstand the term “repent”
Repentance is not just simply apologizing for the sin you have done, but it also means to change, to turn away from.
Yes, we are saved no matter what if we have already received him as our savior… But, we still should try our hardest to live a pure lifestyle. Pure from sin.

We should strive every single day to be walking demonstrations of who Jesus is.
We’re humans, it’s natural for us to mess up… And anyone can mess up, but heres the test… Do we keep committing sins and brush it off? Or do we run to Jesus and lay it at the cross?

But I think as long as our heart is in the right place, and we keep trying to perfect ourselves, that eventually were going to become more and more God like. And as you keep making those changes, you become stronger every day. I think it’s kind of like working out, you have to exercise it every second of the day. You have to become a bodybuilder in His kingdom.

It takes a strong heart to come to the realization… That if I mess up, it’s okay because I know I am already forgiven. It’s okay because Gods grace is so sufficient! Grace. I freaking love that.
I love the comfort of knowing that He loves me so much, that when I mess up and fall down, he’s there to pick me back up and tell me to try again.
That feels so good!

Happiness

As the weekend is approaching, I want you to know that you are in control of your happiness. No one can control how you feel. They may AFFECT your mood, but you are always in control of how you handle it.

Do something this weekend that is positive for you. Go out of your way to make someone smile. Get off your butt and go out into this beautiful world and take advantage of every breath you have!

And lastly, remember that you are beautiful in every single way, in your own kind of way. Don’t let anyone make you believe otherwise!

Have a fantastic weekend people!

Megs.

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Attacks, Attacks, Attacks.

I have recently been struggling with the fact that my family members or people i look highly to are currently attacking me and ambitions to go to Africa in January due to the whole Ebola epidemic.

Let me just make something clear, in the most respectful way I can (Which may not come off completely respectful but oh well).

There is absolutely nothing that anyone can say that will scare me from going to Africa in January. I understand your concerns for my health and safety… But I’m not scared. I have faith.
Jeremiah 1:19 says, they will fight against you but will not overcome you, for I am with you and will rescue you.
If there’s anything I’ve learned over the past year, it’s that Gods word is TRUE.
Wherever I go under the lords calling, He will protect me. I know exactly what I am walking into. I know exactly what the outcomes could be. But most importantly, I know that God is more powerful than the Devil. It says in the bible that Jesus has called us to do bigger things than he. And if you don’t believe me, check it out for yourself in John 14:12. NO LIMITS YALL. I intend on doing everything I can do to live up to that calling! 

I’ve had people tell me that I’m suffering from a “maturity issue” WHAT EVEN. A maturity issue? I’m sorry, I didn’t realize that me listening to what the lord is calling me to do is a “maturity issue.” I’m sorry if I seem a little rude or fed up. But, I’m Insulted. It’s insulting because to me, that sounds like they’re questioning if i know the voice of God or not.

It makes my heart sad that people don’t see it the way I’m seeing it. No one will understand unless they have a calling like this on their life. The difference is, I am choosing to be obedient to God by actually going out and doing something instead of sitting on my butt behind a computer screen/phone not doing anything and insulting the people who are actually doing something. & SO WHAT if i have to be quarantined the second i get back. MY MISSION WAS TO HELP THOSE IN NEED AND THATS WHAT I SHALL DO. I don’t care what it brings onto my life. I don’t care if i catch Ebola. Because I did it all for a bigger cause! 

& if I were to get Ebola and die, or be murdered in some kind of war zone, (which I mean, come on… The chances are super low) then I would go out doing the lords work… And in my books, there’s nothing more honorable than that.

Sooooooo. In the nicest way possible… Please just save your breath. There’s no talking me out of this one. Don’t waste your energy on telling me things I’ve already heard a hundred times. Instead, use your energy on praying Psalms 91 hedge of protection over me, because im a stubborn girl.
There will always be people out there that just won’t understand until they’ve had a calling like this on their life.
You can approve, or you can disapprove… But I’m doing it anyways. And a huge thanks to all of those who believe in me.

Ps. Let me just point something out.

Confirmed cases of Ebola in Uganda, Africa (where I will be) – 0
Confirmed cases of Ebola in Dallas, Texas (40 miles from my house) – 2

Take that haters.

I hate dating

Something that has just really been on my mind a lot.
I really just want to skip the dating part of life, and just be happily married. I just cant really bring myself to go on dates these days. And its not that I have feelings for anyone else or anything… My heart just wont allow it! I cant bring myself to hang out with a man, knowing that thats not the person I’m going to marry. Its the weirdest feeling & it makes me look like a total jerk.

I will admit that my standards may seem a little high, but I don’t really feel like theres anything wrong with that. I don’t even feel like my standards are THAT high. I just want an intellectual Jesus loving man that has a calling on his life to travel, being the hands and feet of Jesus. Someone who isn’t afraid to pray out loud for strangers. Someone who isn’t afraid to surrender himself to Jesus during worship and lift his hands. Someone who will sit with me when were going through a hard time, and just say.. “lets pray”. Someone who would be willing to put their life in danger by traveling to a 3rd world country to help people! Someone who I cant sit with and talk about very deep stuff. Someone who will inspire me to grow in my walk with God in a whole new way.

I know thats a lot… but in my opinion, those standards aren’t high enough. Every single human on this planet needs to be like that. Thats how were called to be. To LOVE jesus and to LOVE people. To be walking demonstrations of who Jesus is.

It just seems like my standards are high, because we don’t come across people like this very often these days & that scares me.

Megs.

Relationships

If we were looking at it on an experience level, I’d be the last person to come to for relationship advice. It seems as if every relationship I’ve ever been, which has been like 2, has failed dramatically. But as I’ve grown older, I am able to see that those 2 relationships that has ended in my life has not been my fault. And as shallow as that seems, its nothing less than true. I’ve been screwed over, and it’s really given me a bad taste when it comes to relationships. I got so fed up with it that I wasn’t really interested in dating anyone for a long time. I enjoyed sitting back and just watching other people in their relationships and observing the mistakes that made them fall apart. I learned a lot by people watching.

Heres what I’ve learned:

Baggage

Every “I love you” every kiss, every hook up, is you giving bits and pieces of your heart away. Youre slowly adding more pounds of baggage onto your life. So when you’re standing at the aisle on your wedding day, you’re not able to give your FULL heart to your spouse. Your heart is missing pieces that are in other mens possessions. And I’m sure 75% of these marriages will end in divorce. I personally do not want to enter my next and last relationship with any baggage whatsoever. I want to be able to give my potential husband my FULL heart.

Standards

Dont ever (AND I MEAN EVER) lower your standards for a male/female. If you have your image of your perfect spouse in your brain, you don’t stop searching until you find just her. Dont ever let your morals drop. If you believe strongly in something, and you’re passionate about it… don’t let someone else degrade it. You chase after your dreams, you keep believing.. because your perfect spouse will back you up 100%

Equally Yoked

I can’t stress enough how important it is to be equally yoked when it comes to being in a relationship with someone. It’s important that if you’re going to date someone, you need to make sure that your morals are the same, that you believe in the same thing, and that you both want the same thing out of life. For example. If your plans are to remain pure until marriage… You need someone who feels  and believes the same. Don’t settle for someone who “supports” you, or who just “accepts” it. NO you need to make sure that they are wanting to obtain purity too! BE EQUALLY YOKED

Purity

I understand that we’re humans and that we all make mistakes. And I know how almost impossible it is to remain pure in the world we live in today… However, I’ve learned that if you make the conscious decision to remain pure until marriage, its much more rewarding. Sex is a form of worship to god. Sex is love, and God is love. So you can bet your butt that Satan is going to take something like sex and do everything in his power to pervert it. That is why it’s all throughout our media today. That’s why its hard to come across unmarried people who are no longer virgins. The devil is perverting the image of sex. Fight through it though! You can do it! Youve waited all this time, you can wait longer! Wait for your husband/wife.

I’ve thought long and hard about what I want in a husband. And I feel like I’m really close to finding him. And despite my age, I feel like I’m more than ready to start settling down with someone. I know what love is. And I also know that in order to have a successful relationship, it needs to be centered around Christ. I haven’t been in a relationship in 3 years and that’s because I choose to grow in my relationship with God before I get in a relationship with a man. I choose to let God ready me in His timing. And when He feel like im ready, he’ll send me the man of my dreams. So for now, I choose to be picky. I choose to have high standards. I just want nothing less than right. 

Megs.

It Gets Easier

And I know how impossible it is to realize that when something heart breaking is happening in your life. But don’t give up. Don’t give into the Devils sly ways of making you think that this feeling will last forever. It won’t. You’re going to be fine. You are loved. Not just by the physical world, but by the spiritual world. Jesus does not set one up for failure. Smile more, pray more, look up and praise God. And even if you have no reason to give thanks… Say thank you for the cross.
You’ll look back on this situation one day and be thankful because of how it changed you. Your current battles are making you stronger.

Megs.

Things To Remember:

  • Just because you wake up feeling like a failure doesn’t mean you are one.
  • Just because people change doesn’t mean you have to let abusive people back into your life. Love them from a distance
  • It’s okay to share your feelings in a relationship.
  • Jesus is good even when I do not see it, and even when i do not hear Him.

If you are feeling low today, look to Jesus. If you are filled with shame and guilt, look to Jesus. If fear be dormant in your soul, look to Jesus. If you have lungs with air and a heart that beats, look to Jesus. For only in Him is there everlasting refuge to be found. 

I love you all.
Megs.

A Dose Of Frustration

I’m not a negative person by any means. I’m typically always smiling or laughing. However, I am human and i do have my downward spirals every once in awhile.
The lack of consideration in men is just what’s really getting to me today. No, I’m not talking about men my age.. I’m talking about adult men who are well past their teenage years and should already have a life established for themselves.
1. If a man decides to get married, you know, make COVENANT, with a female… Then you need to honor that decision. You need to honor your vows. You need to honor that promise between you, that woman, and God.
Yes. God. Your marriage isn’t about you and your wife, it’s about you and your wife HONORING God. GROWING in God. SERVING for God. TOGETHER. And if you can’t grasp the concept that that’s how God calls our marriages to be… Then you’re not ready for marriage.
2. If you’re a father, and you have made the conscious decision to have kids… Or maybe it was an accident (you made the decision to have premarital sex knowing that there was a risk of having a child.) It is your duty, your obligation, your responsibility to follow through with the outcome. It stuns me how many children are growing up without fathers. Do you not realize that you are an essential to life? Do you not realize that we need male figures like fathers to be able to learn how to trust men? To know what to look for in a husband? Do you know that leaving your child is damaging? Who is supposed to protect us until we find our husbands? Who is supposed to walk us down the isle? Who is supposed to be our children’s grandfather?

This applies to women too.
Actually… This just applies to everyone. There are way to many deadbeat people in this world who are running away for their own selfish reasons. How about instead of running away and hiding when things get bad, your turn to God. You cry out for help. You seek for answers from God.
Put down your marihuana joints, turn away from the liquor bottle, and do everyone a favor and get your freaking life together.
Drugs and alcohol aren’t going to do that for you buddy. Only God will.